There are times when it will go so wrong that you will barely be alive, and times when you realise that being barely alive, on your own terms, is better than living a bloated half-life on someone else’s terms.
A carnival of faces moving with the ferris wheel.
A parade of bleeding mouths and no one’s asking if you’re okay.
A vineyard of old love letters turning into wine.
Someone could have loved you once.
Could have rediscovered their hands to give you something
bigger than what you had to give up.
You were just lost in a forest or a city
or yourself, and no one bothered looking for you.
It could have all had a different ending.
The one you deserved with the garden full of your mother’s
favorite plants and your father’s laugh
ringing through the trees.
You’re so much older than you were this morning.
Your favorite song is the one where we all
fall in love like we’re not sorry.
Your favorite song doesn’t exist.
I want to break it to you gently,
but nothing ever breaks without leaving a mess.
The ones who left, they’re not coming back.
The ones who are still here,well,
they’re leaving soon.
Everyone you love will run out of heart.
All the earth you ache for will melt into nothing.
The right ending is the one where you stay here anyway.
The right ending is the one where you can’t find courage,
so courage finds you instead.
“How was your day?”
“Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe”
“How are you?”
“I hope you’re feeling better”
“Have a good day today!”
“I miss you”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I come over?”
“Can I see you?”
“Can I call you?”
“Want something to drink?”
“Watch your step”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“What are you up to?”
“How is your day so far?”
“It will be okay”
“I’m here for you”
“Do you need anything?”
“Are you hungry?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You just made my day”
You don’t have to hear “I Love You” to know that someone does. Listen carefully. People speak from the heart more often than you think.
It’s just you, me and gravity
Pulling and pushing against forces
Falling and rising, only to fall once more
Someone once said that the key to heaven
Unlocks the gate to hell
And i don’t know which one I’m about to open
And ironically, neither do you
Because you get the constellations confused
And you tell me how most of the stars are actually dead
And I think that makes me love them more
The solar system is inked to my skin
To remind me of lost time and wide open space
And space… You’ve got too much and I haven’t got enough
I’m thirsting for the Milky Way and uncharted stars
And the idea that without gravity
I wouldn’t be the lesser of you and me
The first time you told me you loved me
I just whispered ‘I’m sorry’
The way you trace my freckles into constellations
Only left me wanting to watch the sky on Lake Michigan
And streak it into shooting stars for wishing
And when I lay my head on your chest
The ocean tickles my ear as the waves crash in every heartbeat
And if I close my eyes, I can smell the salty beach
The veins in my body run like railway tracks and back roads
They swerve through cities and ghost towns getting lost and found
The tips of my toes dance in Italy to foreign music
And my fingertips travel over rubble and rocks and sand
I have dust under my nails from Germany to Mexico
In the winter, I smudge hearts onto Jack Frost’s window art
Because I always make sure I leave a part of mine behind
When we watched the sunset last week
I was watching it in four other countries too
It all began just after I outgrew my diapers
My dad told stories of places I couldn’t even imagine
And in one over excited gasp, his wanderlust got trapped in my lungs
And I set out to exhale all the points on my map
And now, you tell me I’m your Drops of Jupiter
As you sit at the edge of my bed
Watching me pack for another goodbye
Because you’re in love with a girl
Who’s in love with the world
And you know you can’t make me stay